Friday, September 05, 2008
ITS ALL IN MY HEAD!

Ic  cant write a whole post recently (on either blog)
2 much hate way 2 much im not feelign anything
slipknoting it now...ts the only music i can relate to latly
i can understand why people like them now...
i can relate
thses days i dont feel like myself
everybody is seeing my ugly side! lol ive had a constant headache forever its not going but its really small it feels like its blocking my thoughts...  the hate and anger its the only way i cud express it without KILLING some1  im so streesseedd and alone well not totally alone but very alone..slipknot hushes the voices in my head they keep me company and numb me out when in alone,it fucking saves me ,it numbs me totally my mind my body my emotions my thoughts ...i hate all those things...When im fucking stressed and people keep fucking riding my back  slipknot is all i can hear it blocks out the noise(not fucking literal) it brings out my ugly side but i dont care cuz it makes me feel sane! IM NOT THE ONLY FUCKING ONE! it kills my logic and my motivation thins i dont need it kkills my love but that dsnt matter i love slipknot!
they might insult god sometimes, i cant resist to think that some people up there ignore me i am FORCED to think sometimes(im not losing my faith...)  it makes me craszy like fucking sane not the lyrics but the overall emotion in the music is EXACTTLLYY how  i fucking feeeell away the only way i cud describe it is away
 like a fuking out of body experience the screams ,oh the fuckign screams its liek hearing the insides of my mind outside ,All hope is not gone but FUCK so much of it is...it helps me accept thsi world more it helps me  die ..dieing is good sometimes  when fucking PEOPLE TRY TO CONTROL FUCKiNg ME! with anything THE FUCKING BLISTER EXISTS and i feel like im the fucking blsieterr i feel left behind i feel like  im eyeless fuck i relate so fuckiung much sooo much of their songs its like my mind  slip basically ExPLAINS my uglyside they are my ugly sides favorite band FAVORITE the creepyness THE FUCKING BASS THE DRUMS THE FUCKING FURYYYY!! i love slipknot without them id fuckign flip  out and Fucking kill id curse alot more and a few people wud be dead  if i get posessed i hope it kills my conscience if i go to hell  i hope i dont burn ,when i feel sad and alone and fucking bad  and shittyand abandoned and fucking simply quite angry slipknot helps me let it out when im fucking alone its my only friend it holds back my fucking tears   i dont hate on slipknot cuz it seems liek they see life though my eyes it seems so relavant in some way like wayssssss when the anger is gone the wisdom comes back but for he while the weeks the days im fucking hateblinded it fuckign eats away at the back of my head it fucking makes me want to curse and hit and break  and the slipkmot lets it out insetead of me actually doing these things its way to much for me to type WAY TO FUCKING MUCH
later fuckign haters STAY SIC!


Posted at 11:14 pm by sadface

 

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sadface
February 3rd 1991  (Age 26)
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Ocean Avenue
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